One year ago today, I had just gotten a new order of ovulation strips (yup, right off the bat). My cycle was so all over the map, I couldn't use a kit, I couldn't time it right, not to mention, have you seen the price of those kits?! Nope I found a place online that sold just basic strips, something like 50 for $30. I had just gotten into my second order of them, and I was getting really frustrated. I had been using these daily some times twice daily for a while, that along with my EVERY morning routine, and EVERY night routine, the supplements, the dietary restrictions I had put on myself, the specific products I would use.
Here I was, TRYING to time out my ovulation but I had been getting about a weeks worth of positive strips...I was wondering should I be concerned? Or did I have faulty strips? So I took to my typical place, on the what to expect when you're expecting, trying to conceive message board. I explained what happened and waited. Honestly from my experience now, that is the board with the fastest response time. Finally some one replied, and told me to take a pregnancy test. I had easily taken 50+ tests to date, and had seen more negatives than I would care to...so I was pretty jaded when it came to tests at this point, I never let myself get excited...especially since I had it written on the calendar a week later to take one. So I hit up my dollar store stash because lets face it, when you're testing THAT much, you only have the pricier ones if you think you got a positive. I sat on my bathroom floor, prepared to take a picture of the test, and post it with the title "Line eyes" on the message board, and hold my breath until some one replied. I really didn't need to, the line was very clear. Well cheapy passed, let's get out a good one, positive. Finally I grabbed the digital one, YES.
Cale was waiting in the living room, to start the movie, Dr. Strange, no idea what I was doing. I snuck into our bedroom, and grabbed the box that I had prepared 4 months ago, to tell him, he was going to be a dad. I knew I wouldn't be able to wait to tell him, so I had this ready. If you ask him he will always tell you his reaction was because my timing was awful. Cale said, "are you serious" I told him, I couldn't fake a positive. "Cool, are we going to watch the movie now"?
Yup, one year ago today, I found out I was going to be a mom. No idea if I would have a boy or girl (eventually I got the feeling, and I was right), no idea what the name would be, and DEFINITELY no sweet clue what he (or she..at the time) would look like. Today, I sit here typing this, tired after another wonderful day of giggles and smiles, cries and coos, listening to the music playing on the baby monitor.
K, Luv Ya, Bye
Nancy
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