I'm almost Older than my Mom

         

I'm turning 32 in 5 days, and when I turn 32, I will OFFICIALLY be older than my mother. She died at 31 years old. For years people have told me, "That's so young" and it's hitting me harder than ever this year, and today in particular, because she passed away 27 years ago to the day. 

          I was almost 5 when my mom passed, but there are things I remember about her. I do remember her voice oddly enough, I remember some things we did together and getting in trouble. I remember the day she passed, how dad told me, where I was, and how tight the hug was when I started to cry. 

         As I said this year it hits me harder, not just because I will be older than my mom, but because I became a mom this year. My heart aches for the pain she must have felt in the end, and I'm not talking about the cancer. I mean knowing what she would miss with Peter and I. I looked at it selfishly for years. My Mom missed my Birthday, my prom, my Wedding...but my Mom SO wanted to be there, and my heart aches for her now. On top of EVERYTHING she was going through, she was having to say goodbye to us. I see pictures of her with me, and the love she had, and I get it now. I hope I'm giving the same thing to Jake. 

         I've shed so many tears over the years for my Mom, I'm not crying now, I'm aching for her. 27 years, that's a lot she missed.

       -Nancy 

Blogging about Blogging

         

           I've been having a hard time finding time, and topics to blog about. Cale has been off for the last week and Jake has had some new experiences.

          One thing that started was Jake is on solids now. Cereal is very popular, and we have mixed it with Sweet potatoes so far which was a so so experience. I think he prefers his cereal to mixed with the sweet potatoes. Today we try apples.

          We've also been dog sitting and our friends have a swing that is perfect for Jake to lay in and we just swing him around, he loved it.

          I've been working kind of behind the scenes on the blog, things I might like to post about. One major thing of course is we're JUST over a month away from my Christmas planning series starting, which means my preparation for it is underway. This will be my third year doing this series, and it has been vastly different between years. My first year, OUR focus was our first Christmas in our new house. Not to mention there was VERY little organization, preparation, and I really had no idea what I was doing. Last year, I was preggo, so my physical capabilities were limited. A lot more prep, organization, and I had an idea what I was doing, I was just ALWAYS so tired. This year is Jake's first Christmas. I have EVERY post scheduled, and even started on some of the prepping and basic notes for the posts. Once again Cale will be playing a MAJOR role in all of it, and so will Jake not prepping but promise he will be in there. Honestly the exciting part for us will be watching his reactions to different aspects (for me, the tree will be a BIG one).

         When I have made mention of the Christmas posts, I've mentioned that while I post new posts on Facebook, on both my personal and fan page, this year I have offered to post directly to YOUR facebook page, so you never miss a post. I only have a few names that have asked to be included on this list, but if you would like to be included let me know.


        K, Luv Ya, Bye

        Nancy